Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Day Three of AIP

Today is day three of following the The Autoimmune Protocol, it hasn't been too bad so far.

Last night I really really wanted a little Cadbury mini egg, but I refrained. I don't know if I am feeling any better yet, not that I expected too this quick. I feel generally achy today, especially on my left side, my left leg hurts and I'm having spasms in my left arm, tingling in my feet, still floating.

I find I have been struggling a little with breakfast. For some reason we all have ideas of what breakfast should be. Eggs, toast, bacon, cereal, pancakes, why? Why do we put certain foods into certain categories like eggs for breakfast, sandwiches for lunch.

I decided to make some food so that I could just heat it up in the morning. I made the best, the BEST, sweet potato hash. It was so simple:

Cut up a pound of bacon, I used uncured all natural, no preservatives, cook in a frying pan
Remove the bacon (not the grease) and add two large sweet potatoes cubed, cook until tender and remove
Add 1 sweet onion diced or sliced and cook until translucent, add two cloves minced garlic, salt and pepper and onion powder.
Put it all back in the pan for a minute or two.

Yum! I didn't take a picture or I would post it.

So this morning I grabbed a bit of that to take to work and eat for breakfast, but today was a gym day so I needed some extra protein. I'm still getting used to not having my protein shakes and I miss them, so I have had to be more creative with my protein intake. There was a leftover pork chop in the fridge so I cut that up and ate it in the car on the way to the gym, whatever works!

Monday, April 21, 2014

Paleo Diet and Autoimmune Protocol

So I have spent a great deal of time reading about a the Paleo Diet and the role it can play in healing/managing MS. A Paleo style diet is also known as the Caveman diet. The short of it is, no processed foods, basically just meat and veggies.

MS is an autoimmune disease so I have chosen to try to follow The Autoimmune Protocol because it makes sense to me that what I put in my body effects how I feel. Starting today I will be doing a thirty day elimination diet. I have read a couple of different things, that the elimination phase should be 23 and some say 30 so I am not sure exactly what I will use for a date yet. I am giving up grains, processed foods, dairy, eggs, nuts, seeds, sugar, coffee and alcohol and then I will slowly start to reintroduce them. I will not reintroduce grains though, and I am not sure about dairy, maybe in limited amounts.

I had already reduced my intake of grains and processed foods considerably. After baby M was born I had a month to get back to where I wanted to be to enjoy my Florida vacation. I kept the lifestyle since I felt better on it.

This weekend I ate and drank a lot. I said goodbye to some of my favorite foods and today is day one of the elimination diet.

No coffee today, replaced it with green tea. Lunch, well I forgot to pack my salad so I am not sure yet!
The elimination will be tough, but I can handle it. I need to see if it helps, the fatigue and dizziness is kicking my ass.

Being Diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis

I thought it was time, to get it all out in words, all of the stuff that has been clouding up my mind for the past couple of months.

On April 1st, I got my official, you have Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis, but by that point I was really already OK with it. 

I started having some strange things happening in February. I had a few dizzy spells and I thought, that maybe it was low blood sugar, or I was tried or whatever. I've been dizzy before, it goes away. But then it didn't and it got worse. One night in particular it was really bad and when I woke up the next morning my left arm was tingling and the left side of my face was numb. I thought maybe I was having a stroke, or maybe it was a migraine or maybe I had a B12 deficiency. I ignored things for about a week, trying various home remedies. 

Feeling like maybe it was an ear infection, or clogged sinuses. After a week I went to my PCP's office and saw one of the nurse practitioners. She said I had vertigo, tried some weird thing where she would lean me back and flip me up really fast to try to correct it. It didn't work. She suggested that I continue to try the antihistamines for the dizziness. She also felt that maybe the tingling in my arm was a pinched nerve from lifting weights, she told me to come back in 10 days if I didn't feel better. 

After about another week of not feeling any better, I woke up during the night with my left leg numb. I could not feel it, the tingling in my arm was so bad I wanted to cut my own arm off. So I called and went back in and saw my regular nurse practitioner. Soo many things running though my head, I think I was starting to make up symptoms from anxiety. She did and EKG, I was not having a stroke or a heart attack. She ordered blood work, that came back normal, she didn't know. At this point, after researching all of my symptoms on the internet, I thought I either had Multiple Sclerosis or a brain tumor, so I asked for an MRI. 

The next day I was in the car with my  boss on my way to one of the homes and the doctors office called first thing in the morning. Of course I was freaked out. The nurse said the NP wanted to see me to go over my MRI, my boss was extremely supportive and we turned around so I could see the doctor. 

I was so scared that I had a tumor, or something scary and immediately life threatening. My hubby was out of the country for work and I felt completely alone and not able to take the news myself, so I called my sister. The NP came in and told me that the results were highly suggestive if Multiple Sclerosis and further testing would be necessary, onto the lumbar puncture.

I have to say I was the most scared of the lumbar puncture than I have been of any other procedure I've ever had. I've had three babies, all without the use of a epidural just to avoid having a needle in my back. I'm not so much afraid of needles, in fact I've given myself injections just fine, I was so afraid that he would miss or something causing me to lose all feeling in my legs. Luckily it went just fine, I really no adverse effects. I had a headache but nothing unbearable that I've heard can happen. 

So two weeks later I met with the neurologist who did an exam and reviewed my results. He said yes I do have Multiple Sclerosis. He feels that I will not suffer any major deficits with being on a disease modifying drug. Currently I still have numbness and tingling, mostly on my left side, but also in both feet. The dizziness comes and goes in intensity but is always there. My neurologist said he thought those symptoms would subside. 

So I'm waiting now, waiting on medication. I will be taking Copaxone, an injection three times a week. It hasn't arrived yet because apparently there is a hold up with insurance, pre-authorization, getting the med from the specialty pharmacy, good thing I'm not dying or anything. I'm also going to see if changing my diet helps, which I will talk about in another post. 

For now, I'm good. It could always be worse, I am choosing to look at it as a life's annoyance that I need to deal with. 

Friday, April 12, 2013

The arrival of baby M

After a few false starts and the longest labor I've ever had baby M arrived on April 10th at 1:19pm, weighing 7lbs 6oz.

The story goes:

Friday April 6th I was having a lot of back pain so I thought I should go in and get checked. I went to the birthing unit and was hooked up to the monitor, which picked up contractions about every 3 minutes, the midwife checked and I was 5cm, not too much of a surprise because I was 4cms at my last appointment on Tuesday, everyone was hoping Tuesday would be the day but it wasn't. J&J were planning on coming up for the weekend to stay, hoping that baby M would make his arrival, I called them from the hospital and told them to leave sooner than they had planned.  That evening I stayed on observation and walked the hall for an hour, 29 laps around the unit is a mile, I lost count though. After no progress in dilation I was sent home. That evening I bounced on my ball and paced back and forth. I sat on the couch to rest, fell asleep and contractions were gone.

Saturday was a normal day, I'll call it a rest day for my body. I took the kids to swim lessons and had a few contractions but nothing worth anything. J&J came over for dinner and we had a great visit and they went back to their hotel.

Sunday rolled around and still nothing was happening, J&J were planning to make the 2 1/2 hour trip home and go to work on Monday. They texted me when they got home and I don't even know what time it was at this point. It was a relaxing day so I went to lay down for a while and I woke up with regular contractions about 5 minutes apart. I took a shower and walked around the house for a while and finished making dinner, they were not going away so I called the guys and said I was going in for a check, they decided to make the trip back. We arrived at about 6:30pm, different midwife on call from Friday, she checked and I was a "stretchy 5". More walking. I walked and bounced for hours and there was no change in my cervix and was sent home at 11:30pm with a sleeping pill, since the contractions were strong enough that I couldn't have slept though them. I slept the whole night though and woke up to no contractions.

Monday I decided not to go to work, still exhausted from the night before and very depressed that things were not progressing. I had so many expectations regarding this delivery that just were not happening right. Everyone speculated that I would deliver early, since my own two were born slightly early. Everyone thought because I was already at 4cms labor would progress quickly, it did not. I decided to take some time for myself and try not to think about being pregnant at all. I went and got a pedicure and had lunch with my dad then I went home and relaxed for the rest of the day.

Tuesday morning I woke up at 4:30 with a gush of fluid and I quickly hopped out of bed to save my mattress and went downstairs to use the bathroom. It was mostly clear with some mucous and I knew it was my water. I went upstairs and told my hubs, my water broke then I went back downstairs, made coffee and paced around for a while. I was not having any contractions at all. Because I was told I would "go" quickly as soon as labor started I called the midwife. She said to have some breakfast, shower and come in. I called J&J about 5:30 and told them I was sure my water broke and that I was headed in, I told them they had time and not to race back here. This was midwife number three...When we arrived I was not gushing, just trickling a little, the litamus paper was negative for amniotic fluid, the slide was not ferning. I was told that it was not my water and I must have just had a build up of mucous that released. I went home completely devastated. One I didn't believe them, I knew it was my water and two I was so done with this pregnancy.
Hubby went back to work and did some things around the house. I bent down to pick up laundry and another gush. I put on a pad and went about my day, containing to have small gushes throughout the day. I went to lunch with my husband had another very large gush. I said that's it and called the midwife. At this point J&J had decided to go home, collect some stuff for a long stay and come back and check into a hotel.

The midwife called me back around 3:30 pm and told me to come in to be checked again. This time the litamus paper was positive and there was ferning on the slide. I was finally officially admitted for "labor", though I was still not having contractions so I was sentenced to more laps around the unit. I did laps upon laps and bounced on the ball and that was doing nothing. J&J arrived around 8:30 pm and were given the room next to mine. Still having no contractions we decided to try nipple stimulation with a breast pump. I pumped 3 times for twenty minutes at a time and had contractions while I was pumping but nothing that sustained. I did get 3 decent syringes of colostrum for baby M however. Knowing that things were probably not going to happen on their own I decided to take a nap. I slept for about three hours.

Wednesday morning at 3:30am we made the decision to go ahead and start Pitocin. It had been nearly 24 hours, I had constant temperature checks and I was fine, but I really needed to be done. They started the Pitocin around 4:30am on a slow drip. Midwife number 4 (I had now seen every midwife in the practice with the exception of mine since she was away on vacation) said that I just needed a little push and she thought my body would take over. The mood was light, J&J were spending time in my room with me and waiting. I felt a little like a watched pot that would never boil. I was having contractions every 2-3 minutes, but I could still walk and talk though them. Finally at around 9 or so the contractions picked up where I needed to relax and practice my hypnobirthing, the midwife decided we could turn off the pit and let my body take over, which was the wrong thing to do, since the contractions stopped and I was dozing off.

Unfortunately I had to go back on the pit, two hours of hard contractions, I couldn't even relax anymore. I had a complete meltdown, crying and whining I was exhausted and wanted to give up. I couldn't have done it without my husband and my wonderful nursing team who talked me down and helped me to concentrate again. I was not able to labor the baby down and just let my body do the work, the contractions were so hard and fast I had to push. I was pushing on my hands and knees until I realized I couldn't see J&J. One of the reasons I did this was so that I could see their reactions as they became parents, so I turned around to watch.  I pushed so hard for about 3 or 4 pushes and he finally came out. I said oh thank god!  Once his head was out my midwife guided one the dads hands and he received his baby. The other dad cut the cord. It was an amazing enorphine rush, truly heartwarming and an experience I will never forget.
The labor was nothing like any labor of my own, the delivery was unbelievably painful but I did it and I have no regrets.

The dads are so in love with their little boy. I am so in love with all of them. I feel so thankful to have them in my life, such warm and wonderful thoughtful people, an amazing little boy that took a small village to create and my wonderful amazing husband who stood by my side every second.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Simple Gestures

Today I discovered how simple gestures of kindness can be completely uplifting. I learned that there are actually nice people who do nice things for no apparent reason. 

Today I was feeling particularly sorry for myself on my way to work, my new job, where I have worked for three months, is not the dream job I had hoped it would be. I'm feeling hugely pregnant and a bit uncomfortable (less than 10 weeks to go!) and I am overly emotional. Lukas told me this morning that a kid called him stupid yesterday and it broke my heart. So... I thought I'd try to make myself feel better with a donut, why not right. 

I stopped at the Dunkin Donuts closest to me on my way to work and ordered an iced coffee and a chocolate frosted donut. When I pulled around to the pick up window, the person said the lady in front of you has paid for your order. 

I was shocked, though I had heard of it, I hadn't realized that people actually did it. I decided it was only right for me to pay for the person in line behind me. 

I drove away, emotional still, but feeling uplifted by the experience. 

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Life Update

I regret that there have been so many things that I could have written about, to look back on and read in the future and I didn't. All of the years that have gone by and all of the things my kids have said and done, I posted it on Facebook instead. At least I managed to update their baby blog books. I have Lexi's completed and printed, I decided to stop at Kindergarten and print the book. Sadly I haven't been updating Luke's book as much or as often. I tend to write many posts all at once and I am sure I've left things out after the fact. I created a printed photo story book for 2012 which I am happy about and I hope to continue doing moving forward. I may even go back and try to do 2011 and prior, but that could get expensive.

I haven't written since 2008 so I feel the need to do some sort of timeline, catch up I guess with where I've been, which could be difficult to remember at this point.

The highlights:

2009: Lukas turned 1 and also took his first steps. Lexi turned 3 started going to preschool.

2010: Lexi started Pre-K in public school and celebrated her 4th birthday. Lukas turned 2. We thought we were going to sell  our house and move to a bigger house, it was an awesome house with tons of bedrooms and lots of character however, things happen and it didn't work out, which I truly believe is for the best. Steve met his two older half-sisters. Oldest step daughter moved in with us, Oldest step daughter moved out.

2011: We took a vacation to Myrtle Beach. Lexi started going to Kindergarten, turned 5 and started sleeping in her own bed, a bitter sweet moment that I look back on now and miss her nightly visits. This was a big year for Lexi with a lot of growth and maturity happening. Lukas turned 3. Oldest step daughter moved in with us.

2012: This year sticks out in my mind as a really good year, of course it was the most recent year and eaisest to remember, though our ups and downs, all turned out well. Lukas celebrated his fourth birthday, and began Pre-K, he had a much easier time than Lexi had and has been enjoying school. Lexi started first grade and turned 6. Middle step daughter moved in with us, oldest step daughter moved out, sorta. I left my job that I had been at since 2007 and started a new job.

There, four years in a nutshell. My life is pretty tame and uninteresting for the most part, but it's mine, I'm as happy as I can be, of course there is always room for improvement.

Friday, August 10, 2012


I am officially pregnant!

I finally got a positive on a home pregnancy test at 11dp3dt, for the record, do not buy the Internet cheapies, because it was still two days after my beta before I could even get a faint line on the Internet test.

As soon as I got a positive I texted the picture to the guys. They are "tentatively thrilled". I had my first beta HCG test on Monday and that came back at 51. I think the clinic was a little worried that the number was fairly low, but my repeat beta was 138 so it more than doubled which was good. I still have to go back for another beta check tomorrow to make sure that the numbers keep doubling. I'm not entirely sure why, meaning I'm not sure what they would do if they didn't double, if the pregnancy is not going to be viable there isn't anything that can be done about it. My progesterone levels were great so that is not a problem.

The ultrasound is tentatively scheduled for August 24th. I'm hoping that all goes well and there is a heart beat. The guys are coming to the ultrasound so I'm really excited to see them see their baby's heartbeat.